Friend oh my friend, I require you.

I do not understand by what now I feel, is it possible that I feel the solitude...?? I own some close friend of campus or friend but I feel the them do not care is by what happened with now...??? I their know no relation with the occurence befalling my family but at least they can amuse I but its reality what they only stir with the business [of] each really I require the friend which can listen my story although just hearing and now I only can, hide this feeling by xself. I confuse must how [so that/ to be] me can face my problem.. this time I anxious for own the friend which always there [is] at elbow in joking, laugh and also like and sorrowful, can accept I what the existence of because I realize if I own a lot of insuffiency which cannot can be counted
Hitherto this I not yet got the friend buttonhole which I wish, in fact its sich conditions only simple [of] like generally... me also realize if me [of] non good friend make my friend although during the time I try to become the good friend although I feel the them [is] sometime laughed the above snubbing which I earn from their mouth but I out for remain to be obstinate and accept what they say for me, I assume [it] as persiflage although sometime hurt. Although words which I say to they can might not hurt their feeling because them [is] my friend which during the time accompanies day in makassar.
I [do] not know whether/what me have properly make made [by] friend with the circumstance which is like this with the nature of which sometime embarrass ......????? when you can find a friend which I can rely on the goodness like will be sorrowful even also, because during the time my friend this time I feel the them [of] there's only my moment like or to make made to to be laugh but my moment feel sorrowful and require a their friend there no beside I although they there but the same because surely they do not want to listen my story....