Friend become love

Like song warbled by band ZIZAG entitling" friend become the love " I feel that song represent the song matching with mood now my walapun try to say " DON’T " but I cannot deny if me have fallen in love with the me friend which now have confessed to consider to be the friend....??? why I feel,,, I is one of easy people fall in love with a men which I consider to be the sweetheart of all girl of[is so that one who assume the friend during the time without I realize as usual I fall in love...??? nowadays I feel suffered with my feeling [by] xself, but I do not want to destroy the friendship only with the ill defined love come [his/its] where from...?? although I out for arrest;detain all this but why
that feeling always come to me..??
I want to be a girl which [do] not easy to fall in love with a man but why that difficult once though I have several times feel the remarkable ill will from love, one of them is that is have loved a men during 4 year but hitherto no its reciprocation like song of UNGU BAND entitling " love at heart " though that men also represent the friend but now have will marry with the other;dissimilar girl although I don’t suffer decease the liver [of] because that feeling lose by xself but nowadays I start to feel the same thing that is fall in love with my friend by xself although I number have never if will be happened [by] like this... really I do not want to feel this again, I hate but why I cannot eliminate this feeling each;every I see the photo he/she I feel very circumstantial homesick, whether/what wrong if I fall in love with my friend.....?? whether/what wrong if I hide this feeling...???
I know if he not possible to become my boyfriend but that feeling continuously torture I although in fact I don’t wish it....?? in fact I very lose face with the circumstance and feeling [of] because me is a girl which don’t ought to easy to fall in love is of equal a men [of] and surely with my friend by xself. Yes my allah request to you [so that/ to be] easy feeling fall in love [in] lessening in consequence can have an effect on with the my heart later. I confuse with the my feeling problem... how to be I can lessen that feeling....??? help me in solving problem this...????