I do not understand by what now I feel, is it possible that I feel the solitude...?? I own some close friend of campus or friend but I feel the them do not care is by what happened with now...??? I their know no relation with the occurence befalling my family but at least they can amuse I but its reality what they only stir with the business [of] each really I require the friend which can listen my story although just hearing and now I only can, hide this feeling by xself. I confuse must how [so that/ to be] me can face my problem.. this time I anxious for own the friend which always there [is] at elbow in joking, laugh and also like and sorrowful, can accept I what the existence of because I realize if I own a lot of insuffiency which cannot can be counted
Hitherto this I not yet got the friend buttonhole which I wish, in fact its sich conditions only simple [of] like generally... me also realize if me [of] non good friend make my friend although during the time I try to become the good friend although I feel the them [is] sometime laughed the above snubbing which I earn from their mouth but I out for remain to be obstinate and accept what they say for me, I assume [it] as persiflage although sometime hurt. Although words which I say to they can might not hurt their feeling because them [is] my friend which during the time accompanies day in makassar.
I [do] not know whether/what me have properly make made [by] friend with the circumstance which is like this with the nature of which sometime embarrass ......????? when you can find a friend which I can rely on the goodness like will be sorrowful even also, because during the time my friend this time I feel the them [of] there's only my moment like or to make made to to be laugh but my moment feel sorrowful and require a their friend there no beside I although they there but the same because surely they do not want to listen my story....

Like song warbled by band ZIZAG entitling" friend become the love " I feel that song represent the song matching with mood now my walapun try to say " DON’T " but I cannot deny if me have fallen in love with the me friend which now have confessed to consider to be the friend....??? why I feel,,, I is one of easy people fall in love with a men which I consider to be the sweetheart of all girl of[is so that one who assume the friend during the time without I realize as usual I fall in love...??? nowadays I feel suffered with my feeling [by] xself, but I do not want to destroy the friendship only with the ill defined love come [his/its] where from...?? although I out for arrest;detain all this but why
that feeling always come to me..??
I want to be a girl which [do] not easy to fall in love with a man but why that difficult once though I have several times feel the remarkable ill will from love, one of them is that is have loved a men during 4 year but hitherto no its reciprocation like song of UNGU BAND entitling " love at heart " though that men also represent the friend but now have will marry with the other;dissimilar girl although I don’t suffer decease the liver [of] because that feeling lose by xself but nowadays I start to feel the same thing that is fall in love with my friend by xself although I number have never if will be happened [by] like this... really I do not want to feel this again, I hate but why I cannot eliminate this feeling each;every I see the photo he/she I feel very circumstantial homesick, whether/what wrong if I fall in love with my friend.....?? whether/what wrong if I hide this feeling...???
I know if he not possible to become my boyfriend but that feeling continuously torture I although in fact I don’t wish it....?? in fact I very lose face with the circumstance and feeling [of] because me is a girl which don’t ought to easy to fall in love is of equal a men [of] and surely with my friend by xself. Yes my allah request to you [so that/ to be] easy feeling fall in love [in] lessening in consequence can have an effect on with the my heart later. I confuse with the my feeling problem... how to be I can lessen that feeling....??? help me in solving problem this...????